
The other night I had a dream. And like most dreams, it didnât ask for permissionâit just arrived, vivid and weird and strangely sacredâŚ. I think.
I was walking through a quiet neighborhood. Fall had clearly checked in: the trees were bare, the air felt crisp, and I was with my best friendâs parents and a small childâmaybe two or three years old. We found two balloons along the way. Simple white ones. Joyful, floating, light. The kind that make toddlers smile and grown-ups nostalgic.

The baby cried. I donât know if it was her balloon or just the idea of something pure drifting off forever. But we comforted her and went to get another one. Because thatâs what you do when something good escapes your handsâyou try to bring back a version of it.
We kept walking. Me, the baby, the balloons, and the falling season.

Somehow, as dreams go, I began collecting more white balloonsâwalking through a neighborhood that looked both familiar and not. But the trees, tall and bare, made me nervous. I worried the branches might pop what I was holding. So I did what any balloon-carrying, overprotective spirit-warrior would do: I brought them in closer. I held them tightly, protecting these fragile floating things like they were sacred.

Eventually, I arrived at an apartmentâmaybe mine, maybe someone elseâsâbut I knew I was safe there. And hereâs where it gets trippy.
I released the balloons into the room, expecting them to rise. But they didnât. They deflated mid-air, falling gently to the ground⌠and when they hit the floor, they transformed into coins.

Yeah. Coins.
Not quarters or nickels or anything I could identify. Just strange, sacred coins. I dropped to my knees and stared at them like a man trying to decipher a challenging Sudoku puzzle. I turned to the baby and whispered something that surprised even me:
âDonât worry⌠theyâll turn back into white balloons.â
I woke up still holding that sentence in my chest.

I donât always recognize the coins this illness gives me. Theyâre not always shiny. Sometimes they look like days I canât walk. Or mornings I wake up angry that my body forgot how to be my body. But every now and then, in the silence of reflection, I realize theyâve been currency for something deeper: patience, presence, surrender.
And maybe⌠just maybe⌠some of them are waiting to become white balloons again.

If youâre reading this and holding something fragileâhope, grief, identity, healthâI see you. Keep walking. Hold on tight. Let go when itâs time. And trust that even the deflated things still carry magic.
Because even coins can fly, if you believe hard enough

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